"Oh, you want to be a writer. Fantastic idea!"
I don't know why I've decided to do this. It's not like I have the time. Really, I don't. My work takes up 80% of my life (how sad), and the other 20% is consumed by eating, sleeping, sitting in traffic, or taking care of my dog. Oh, my sweet dog.
I've decided to participate in BEDS: Blog Every Day in September. BEDA (Blog Every Day in August) just passed, and I was so upset when I missed it, although I'm not sure why I was so upset, because like I mentioned a second ago: it's not like I have the time.
I started taking my vitamin D supplements because, you know, I've got a vitamin D deficiency, and ever since I've been taking them, I feel a lot more balanced, a lot more level, a lot less suicidal (which is an obvious pro). Now that I'm all balanced out, one of my very "balanced" thoughts has been, "you should really start blogging again. Writing again. Taking time to do something that you love." And so here I am, diving in head first into something that I miss doing regularly, and never take the time to actually do.
I really hope I don't forget and miss one day. It doesn't take much time at all (in fact, I plan on blogging Monday through Friday at work on my lunch breaks), and yet I still never manage to sit down, crack my knuckles, and do it. But something inside of me has changed (probably all that vitamin D I've been taking). I have been so goddamn depressed for the past year, and I feel like I'm just now starting to crawl out of that hole I've been in. I don't want to be the girl who got depressed and gave up. I want to be the girl that got depressed, worked on her issues, and came out on the other side a little bit smarter, a little more mature, a lot stronger, and didn't let the darkness consume her.
So I'll be here every day until the 30th at least. I hope you're here with me.